Gorillaz and guy codes

     So two things today:  I have recently been liking the Gorillaz a lot.  I don't know what sparked it, or at least I don't remember it, but I have been listening to them all the time now.  My favorite are Last Living Souls, Superfast Jellyfish, obviously Melancholy Hill.  So if you have not heard of them, or have and not their music, hit them up.
     Now to the latter part of this post.  I am right on the edge of being able to break two guy codes at the same time, against one guy.  He shall remain un-named, but he introduced me to an awesome girl, who shall remain nameless for now.  Well at first I thought she was free game, but now I am beginning to believe that my friend likes her as well, and since he met her and friended her enough for him to introduce her to his friends, it would be breaking good ole' number 5.  So that kinda sucks, the other is that I have gained a liking for his ex.  I don't know how she feels about me, but I really need to lie low until I find out anything about her feelings.  So there is number 6 right there.
     So pretty much what I get to do is stay still and see if they come to me, it is not how I would like to approach this situation, but my friend is awesome, and I would really hate to start something douche like that.  But either way, the Gorillaz are really legit, so check them out.

So tonight,

I am going to see the candidates for the next superintendent, so this should be interesting.  I doubt I will ever be working in Arizona as a teacher, but things can happen.  Also, afterwards I will be going to some club at the Madi, so this will be interesting as well.

The ultimate cock block

The ultimate cock blocker is a low self-esteem, it really is.  Because for the most part, it is always with you.  A friend or a mother or whatever may not be around at the right time, but self consciousness will strike at the perfect moment.  I have a low self-esteem, and it isn't too bad, but it gets in the way.  I hesitate because of it, and at times, I really despise it.  I try to get better at it, but stepping out, but I still don't think that I am ready, I am always afraid of rejection. Just because I could ask a girl out and the worst that could happen is she turns me down, almost seems rude.  That I am using her to get over something so minuscule.  If I am going to go on a whim and ask a girl out, I will probably end up taking my time, making sure that she has some kind of interest in me.  Otherwise it is a waste of time, for both of us.  Now, at sometimes, if I am in a different location, somewhere that I will not be returning to any time soon, I do lose some self-consciousness, or at least I mask it.  I know that even if things go right, not much can happen.  Long distance relationship suck for me.  Anything past twenty miles really.  But, I can leave my shell sometimes, but I still have the creepiness that I have earned.  Not in the pedo kind of way, but in the random spontaneous kind of way.  I say things that people want to think about saying, but don't.  But either way, I am still single, still in a rut, and still insane, but no matter what happens, I can still rock it out.  As much as I can hate myself sometimes, I know I can be awesome.

So for those who are fans of Poke'mon and MTG

I am using a MTG set editor to create Poke'mon version of MTG cards, it is quite fun and kind of funny as well. Once I get a few more done I will post them.  If anyone has any suggestions post them and I'll take a look.

Oak Creek

Yesterday was fun, went to Oak Creek with some cool people, I took come pictures of where we made home base and I will upload those soon.  Perfect day, water was nice, slippery rocks were not.  I got beat up pretty bad from falling into the creek as we were walking up it.  I also got to take a nice nap on a rock with the sun on me.  Well, I'm off to meet up with a friend, so have fun y'all and I will put pictures up soon.

My group

So as of right now, I don't know what to think of my group, I like the people in it, but I still feel awkward in it.  It tends to seem that they enjoy my company, but I seem exiled at times.  I will admit that I have not thrown caution to the wind and headfirst to immerse myself in their friendship, but there is always that voice in my head telling me that they are not ready for me to do that.  I am sure that if I ask any of them if they enjoyed my presence, they would tell me that they do.  But, these are some damn nice people, so they would bite their tongue if needed.  So what do I do?  Wait for another group? as if.  Or, just let sleeping dogs lie, just wait and see what happens.  Either way, I am here, they all are there, and I am insane.  So am I.

Think myself thin

So, I think a lot, more than I should, so what I have discovered, is that I think less whilst riding a bicycle.  So, in theory, if I think a lot, and to counteract this thinking I bike everywhere, then I should lose some weight.  Or, at the very least, have awesome legs at the end of semester.  So hopefully I can think myself thin.

So this is a test, to see how, and if this works.

This blog will mostly be my rambles, if I get an audience that would be awesome, but, if I don't then this is my journal.