My group

So as of right now, I don't know what to think of my group, I like the people in it, but I still feel awkward in it.  It tends to seem that they enjoy my company, but I seem exiled at times.  I will admit that I have not thrown caution to the wind and headfirst to immerse myself in their friendship, but there is always that voice in my head telling me that they are not ready for me to do that.  I am sure that if I ask any of them if they enjoyed my presence, they would tell me that they do.  But, these are some damn nice people, so they would bite their tongue if needed.  So what do I do?  Wait for another group? as if.  Or, just let sleeping dogs lie, just wait and see what happens.  Either way, I am here, they all are there, and I am insane.  So am I.