New Semester

Should be legit, close to having a job, Ben is up here, and I have high hopes on the finding of a girl.  And by high hopes, I mean not that high.  But, either way, I foresee many good times for this Spring.  If I can survive this much then I should have a rocking summer.  I am getting closer to becoming a teacher, and I am anxious.  I want to be in the field soon, but I know I still have shtuff to do before I am even allowed to teach, let alone have a school want me to teach for them.  For those who do not know, I want to teach within the corners of the states. Seattle because it seems like a place I would like to work for a little bit.  New York because I have family there and I would love to be accustomed to the city.  Florida, birthplace, and I'd love to go back.  And, finally, California, not too far away from home, has an Ocean, and I know a lot of people who will eventually be settling down there.  Also, these four places pay so much better than Arizona does.  The only thing though, is that it will be hard to transfer over.  Well... not necessarily hard, but time consuming, so if I do take a year to teach here, I will try to get into TCP.  Now, for those of you who do not know what this means in this context, it is my old high school.  And as much as I do not wish to return to it, I don't want to go back as an alumni.  That place is the birthplace of my resolve to become a teacher, so I'd like to start there so I can get my fix in.  Then go somewhere else.  But, most of all, I love the fact that I use "resolve" in a sentence, it made me smile when it popped in my head.

Side notes:
I love the fact that I use "resolve" in a sentence, it made me smile when it popped in my head
I am listening to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, with the girl who touches herself when she sings, you can't deny it, but they are legit.
Sam M.I.A.
My Droid adds an apostrophe mark if I put "dont", so it auto-corrects it, which is nice.  But today, I put "aint" and it added an apostrophe mark in between n and t.
I hope to be adding to this blog more often this semester.  I want to find a way to add a whole bunch of pictures at once.  But, I may just create a Photobucket, or Picasa account to this one.

Logging out.

Gorillaz and guy codes

     So two things today:  I have recently been liking the Gorillaz a lot.  I don't know what sparked it, or at least I don't remember it, but I have been listening to them all the time now.  My favorite are Last Living Souls, Superfast Jellyfish, obviously Melancholy Hill.  So if you have not heard of them, or have and not their music, hit them up.
     Now to the latter part of this post.  I am right on the edge of being able to break two guy codes at the same time, against one guy.  He shall remain un-named, but he introduced me to an awesome girl, who shall remain nameless for now.  Well at first I thought she was free game, but now I am beginning to believe that my friend likes her as well, and since he met her and friended her enough for him to introduce her to his friends, it would be breaking good ole' number 5.  So that kinda sucks, the other is that I have gained a liking for his ex.  I don't know how she feels about me, but I really need to lie low until I find out anything about her feelings.  So there is number 6 right there.
     So pretty much what I get to do is stay still and see if they come to me, it is not how I would like to approach this situation, but my friend is awesome, and I would really hate to start something douche like that.  But either way, the Gorillaz are really legit, so check them out.

So tonight,

I am going to see the candidates for the next superintendent, so this should be interesting.  I doubt I will ever be working in Arizona as a teacher, but things can happen.  Also, afterwards I will be going to some club at the Madi, so this will be interesting as well.

The ultimate cock block

The ultimate cock blocker is a low self-esteem, it really is.  Because for the most part, it is always with you.  A friend or a mother or whatever may not be around at the right time, but self consciousness will strike at the perfect moment.  I have a low self-esteem, and it isn't too bad, but it gets in the way.  I hesitate because of it, and at times, I really despise it.  I try to get better at it, but stepping out, but I still don't think that I am ready, I am always afraid of rejection. Just because I could ask a girl out and the worst that could happen is she turns me down, almost seems rude.  That I am using her to get over something so minuscule.  If I am going to go on a whim and ask a girl out, I will probably end up taking my time, making sure that she has some kind of interest in me.  Otherwise it is a waste of time, for both of us.  Now, at sometimes, if I am in a different location, somewhere that I will not be returning to any time soon, I do lose some self-consciousness, or at least I mask it.  I know that even if things go right, not much can happen.  Long distance relationship suck for me.  Anything past twenty miles really.  But, I can leave my shell sometimes, but I still have the creepiness that I have earned.  Not in the pedo kind of way, but in the random spontaneous kind of way.  I say things that people want to think about saying, but don't.  But either way, I am still single, still in a rut, and still insane, but no matter what happens, I can still rock it out.  As much as I can hate myself sometimes, I know I can be awesome.

So for those who are fans of Poke'mon and MTG

I am using a MTG set editor to create Poke'mon version of MTG cards, it is quite fun and kind of funny as well. Once I get a few more done I will post them.  If anyone has any suggestions post them and I'll take a look.

Oak Creek

Yesterday was fun, went to Oak Creek with some cool people, I took come pictures of where we made home base and I will upload those soon.  Perfect day, water was nice, slippery rocks were not.  I got beat up pretty bad from falling into the creek as we were walking up it.  I also got to take a nice nap on a rock with the sun on me.  Well, I'm off to meet up with a friend, so have fun y'all and I will put pictures up soon.

My group

So as of right now, I don't know what to think of my group, I like the people in it, but I still feel awkward in it.  It tends to seem that they enjoy my company, but I seem exiled at times.  I will admit that I have not thrown caution to the wind and headfirst to immerse myself in their friendship, but there is always that voice in my head telling me that they are not ready for me to do that.  I am sure that if I ask any of them if they enjoyed my presence, they would tell me that they do.  But, these are some damn nice people, so they would bite their tongue if needed.  So what do I do?  Wait for another group? as if.  Or, just let sleeping dogs lie, just wait and see what happens.  Either way, I am here, they all are there, and I am insane.  So am I.